i need to work

I just had to cry… I just had to keep silent… when everything falls hard on me… I just had to rest… I hate myself for doing what is right but seen as wrong… why can’t you understand me… why can’t you see I’m already crawling on mud but I do not complain but you just have to remind me that this mud is because of me… if only the world will change and I’ll be on top, I would never say this to you…